Two weeks…

Only two weeks to go before the big day. Whoa. Dude. Really?? That can’t be. Let me check the calendar again. Yup. On the dot. Okay. You can do this. Can’t you? Oh crap. I need to read that baby book. Wait, did I wash the baby clothes? Did I finish packing the bag? We have a doctor’s appointment today, right? What did we need to ask him again? I need some coffee. Wait. Deep breath. One…two…three.

My mind is racing these days. I have a million things to do. A million things I want to do. A million things that run through my mind in any given hour. It’s been entirely too hard to focus on one thing at a time. I jump from project to project with both a feeling of urgency and a complete and utter lack of motivation. I waffle between sheer excitement and downright panic. As I write this, I have 15 other blog posts that are stuck in my head. I’ve started half a dozen, but can’t seem to get the words on the page. The closest thing I can even compare it to right now is like a kid on Christmas Eve.

Natalie said something the other day that really stuck with me. She said, “You know, this whole thing must be really hard for you. You’ve not really been able to be a part of it. I mean, you’re there for the whole thing doing everything you can, but I have this person living inside me that I feel completely connected to. You’re seeing it all from the outside.” It’s true in some sense and I guess that’s why I have a super case of ADD. I’m trying hard to accomplish the things around me that I have control over, but suddenly all of those tasks have lost their urgency and importance. So, here I sit, trying to get some thoughts on the page and trying to encapsulate some feelings.

Pretty soon, I’ll be working onĀ adrenalineĀ and pure joy. Despite the fear, I’m completely thrilled about the journey and cannot wait.

Not much longer. Breathe. One…two…three.

Happy Tuesday!

jp

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LeolaK Awww…awesome!!! So excited for the both of you…and I only know you through the internet! LOL I’m still cheesing though!!! =)

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